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Wednesday, November 16, 2005

someones always watching

mint chutney said this about my previous post in which i mentioned how i cant blog like no ones watching.

Amen. I too have had this conversation several times. I keep saying we should all get together and start an anonymous blog and wrote what's really on our minds.

if anyone has been reading my blog since it started (i know of exactly two, so thank you loyal readers :)), you will notice that it has evolved. when it started, there would be random posts without any particular purpose. truth is, i had no idea what kind of a blogger i would be. some bloggers are funny, some are analytical, some are deeply personal, others are rambling, and still others are beautifully literary. what kind of a blogger would i be, i wondered when i started.

i wrote a couple of random posts, but they made little sense even to me. then i tried to be movie critic briefly, but it didnt take me long to realise i was trying too hard. i thought of writing some gossippy posts, but my life isnt really that interesting. hardly enough scandal there to make up one post, let alone an entire blog.

but the most productive period came when i began to express some opinions that not everyone agreed with. i blogged with zeal there. i fought to justify things i believed in. however, that ended with some very hurtful and personal attacks. during that period, i crossed a line of decency that i had set out for myself.

there was no one to fight anymore, but my opinions were drawing unwanted interest. unlike many others who choose to blog anonymously, personal details about me are easily available to an enterprising soul. some people found my blog and just let it be known that they were here too. i would rather not have had anything to do with these people, but i cant wish them away. the blog allows them an entry into my life they do not have otherwise. i can ignore their calls, and refuse to reply to emails, but there will always be a lag before i can delete an oversmart comment. enough time for them to make a nuisance of themselves.

well, since i know you read my blog, heres a message to you. i have nothing to say to you anymore, nor am i compelled to listen to you. my opinion of you cannot sink any lower, so dont even try. i dont even know what you ever hoped to accomplish, but if you wanted to force me to respond to you, its not going to happen.

oh, and theres this wonderful thing called comment moderation, which is why i am in love with blogger again. so basically, baby, youre screwed.

now go throw yourself off a cliff or something.

9 Comments:

  • At 6:29 AM, Blogger www.gypsynan.blogspot.com said…

    Hi Vish!!!

    why so mad? And I hope you don't mean you are hanging up your blogging boots because of a few losers are you. No, guess not.... but for a moment...

    I am actually pretty glad I am anonymous - I can stay stuff I can't real life, except to a few select people - and in a way blogging has allowed me to get in touch with my suppressed self - I had become very corporate, I still am actually, thats where I spend most of my day, but for a few minutes a day I can pretend to be at an adda with likeminded souls and meet people and say things I would not otherwise.

    So take deep breatth, smile, keep blogging and ignore the losers.

     
  • At 1:07 AM, Anonymous Sanity Starved said…

    This is a test. I am trying to comment like no one's watching.

    If this doesn't see the light of day... Amen!

     
  • At 11:53 PM, Blogger 4WD said…

    I'm watching. ok, i know you don't know me, but i'm still kaa-ment-ting (like my keralite/american aunt says).

    No real reason. Except i like the pink background. Yeh, so what if i'm a guy. Don't you know? pink is the new purple (i think).

    But really. your blog is cool :)

     
  • At 11:35 AM, Blogger Rimi said…

    er, what was all that about? ennyway, so now you post to say you won't post anymore...or what? i'm a little 'scratches head, scratches chin' here.

     
  • At 10:24 PM, Blogger chamique said…

    So true. Never underestimate the power of self-censorship.
    (Do let me know when that anonymous blog is up.)

     
  • At 1:07 AM, Blogger J. Alfred Prufrock said…

    Aapni ki extinct?

    J.A.P.

     
  • At 9:17 PM, Blogger Shobhik said…

    I made the classic mistake of putting up my full name on Blogger... deleting such details doesn't alleviate th potential damage. So I've left it there.

    My parents know I blog, and they know how to get there, but they don't care. As far as they're concerned, this is my way of self-expression.

    Still, I really don't care what people have to say about me or my blog. And you shouldn't be scared of some people who comment on your blog.

    If people attack you because you fight for a cause, you shouldn't worry - maybe those people haven' got a cause to fight for.

    I've had people morphing a pic of mine into a chimpanzee, adding a speech bubble and abusing my parents. As far as I'm concerned, the guys who did that are losers - they have nothing better to do.

    And isn't blogging about self-expression? Other people don't figure in this equation - its your blog and your views. If white-racialist and neo-Nazi blogs are still in existence, I don't see why you should be so scared of other people criticizing you.

    Keep blogging. Well, atleast you should.

     
  • At 5:43 AM, Blogger Dusty said…

    Hey Vish
    I am blog hopping today. Happy New Year and keep blogging....

     
  • At 11:34 PM, Blogger erebus said…

    I know... blogs are wonderful for intruding into the lives of people who want to actually exclude you from it...
    It's stalkers dream come true... ask Srin
    Am loving it!

     

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